As a Steve/Alex enthusiast I’m looking forward to the PTSD storyline and I’m wondering if it will be eventually triggered by a new traumatic event in Steve’s life or if it will the result of him trying to suffocate his pain and anguish for years (Freddie’s death, his dad’s murder right after that, finding out that his mother was murdered too, being tortured by Wo Fat, finding out that his mother faked her death for 20 years, being lied about and betrayed by people he trusted…).
I think that this second way of leading him into dealing with PTSD would really make sense: no new traumatic event but him finally breaking up after trying and trying to compartmentalize, to be strong, to pretend to be invulnerable but finally finding out that he’s only human, after all.
In the last episodes we saw him in the position of reliving two of the most traumatic and painful events in his life: listening on the phone to the murder of his own father (Grace risked to live the same experience in episode 4x14) and being tortured by Wo Fat (in episode 4x13 he found the victim in the same position he was while being tortured in episode 2x10).
Let’s add to all this the fact that to me he looks more and more unhappy and forced into a relationship he doesn’t really want.
At the beginning of season 4 we’ve been shown that Steve and Catherine live together, at least it seems so… is that a case that this didn’t happen in season 3, when Gabby was in Morocco, far from Danny, but happened when Gabby came back and she and Danny started a normal relationship? I don’t think so.
It’s like Steve really tried to move on, to force himself to build something with Catherine but the things is, and Steve knows that very well, that you can’t force yourself into feeling or not feeling something… he can’t force himself into loving Catherine, he can’t force himself into NOT loving Danny.
And then Danny breaks up with Gabby… but Billy dies, leaving Catherine dealing with guilt, with no job, no purpose… “a mess”, like she says in episode 4x05.
I saw some people saying that Steve doesn’t care about Catherine. Wrong. So wrong. He cares about her and the fact that he chose not to add pain to pain, to be there for her, to give her support, a job, to keep being in a relationship that doesn’t make him (or Catherine!, because I’m more and more sure that she doesn’t love him either) happy, proves that, proves that he cares, proves once again the kind of man that he is.
But it’s hard to try to suffocate your real feelings, it’s hard to pretend that all is fine, it’s hard to deliberately deny yourself a chance to be happy. Steve’s dealing with so much stuff and I’m so looking forward to finally see his emotions break loose. It will be hard but also so intense and emotional, I’m sure of that.